Magic Study

There is this ~beautiful~ beautiful smell outside. There are lush lawns everywhere covered in dew. It’s been drizzling all day and there is the freshest aroma of pure clear water in the air. It has been the lightest rain throughout the day with this light pretty shade of gray fog all over. Collections of black satin crows on the bare gracefully contorted branches of the trees cawing in unison in what seems like a song to the heavens for its gracious lowering of the clouds. It’s alluring, as if it was meant to snow but came to a calm with a resulting scent and energy as if I were sitting at the bank of a flowing waterfall relaxing against a pearly stone taking in the angelic mists of the cascades. I can not stay away. *instead of driving home from work, takes a left turn following the narrow long winding elm and oak tree lined silent road arriving at my favorite mountains, parking the car taking nothing more than a magic filled romantic novel and walking up to the highest cliff, climbs over the rocks to sit at my personal rock in the middle of the water and laying back against the perfectly contoured stone against my back, takes a deep calming breath of this mystic gift and opens up to the first page, stays in my tropical heaven under the canopy of my brilliant falls for hours lost in my enchanting story appreciating my Lord’s oasis*

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Tid Bit Bistro!

My Benny Bear took me to Tid Bit Bistro again ^_^ I love our restaurant! Their food is sooo yummy and the atmosphere is very romantic. You all should go one day! You can follow them on twitter too =) ~Click Here~

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Our First Night Together

Since my love and I hit it big in Vegas with our talents at billiards, black jack and poker; he surprised me with a new home! The place is AMAZING! I am slowly posting pictures of it for you all to see through twitpic. @CrystalJanet was behind it also and @NessiesJake helped my darling @BeneyCheney with all the renovations. I love them all dearly! Here are the two pictures relevant to our first night together as Mr. Ben Cheney and Mrs. Angela Weber-Cheney *swoons* OMG, I Love saying that! x-)

One of Our New Bedrooms


One Of Our New Bathrooms
*We Finally get inside of the house and to one of the bedrooms after the grand tour marveling at its beauty

Angie: *sits on the bed tired, takes off veil and puts in on the side dresser* Ugh, it was so hot out today, Im dying to get out of this dress! *gasps a little thinking that sounded suggestive, looks at you biting my lip wondering what you’re thinking*

Ben: -reads your mind in an instant and laughs lightly- Don’t worry babe, I know what you meant. But you’re right, I gotta get out of this stuffy suit too.

In unison: [sigh] I wanna take a shower

Angie: *giggles lightly and looks at you hoping you’re not thinking what I think you’re thinking*

Ben: -laughs and shakes head once unable to believe how well we know each other, walks over to sit next to you and kisses you slowly to comfort you-

Angie: *sighs into your kiss, kissing you back and melting into your arms like I always do*

Ben: -breaks the kiss with my hand still on your cheek- You know, you haven’t looked at the new bathroom yet -grins then eyes all the strings in your dress and chuckles a little- Uh.. do you need me to help you with the dress?

Angie: Um… *blushes not wanting to be suggestive again* yes, if you don’t mind.

Ben: -laughs- Alright, let me help you

Angie: *whines* Oh boo, but I don’t want to get up *pouts* Im tired

Ben: -slight burst of laughter- Then how do you intend getting to that shower of yours? Haha, would you like me to carry you?

Angie: *gasps through a smile* Yes! *makes grabby hands at you*

Ben: -chuckles and picks you up bride style and walks you over to the bathroom, sets you down facing away from me to untie your dress' ribbons-

Angie: *still giggling from the fun of the ride over here* Thank you! *smiles and sweeps my hair over my left shoulder for you*

Ben: -grins, laying kisses across your bare neck and shoulder- Did I tell you how beautiful you looked today? -slowly finishes undoing the ribbon to the top of your dress and slipping it off of you and laying it on the counter right next to us and wrapping my arms around your waist-

Angie: *blushing, turns my head to the side to look at you smiling and whispers* Yes, and you look really handsome too Benny Bear *kisses you warmly and turns to face you wrapping my arms around your neck*

Ben: I love you Angel -kisses you back, letting it quickly become a French kiss wrapping my arms around your waist and back molding you to me, hugging you as tight as I know how-

Angie: *sighing into your kiss, returning your passion, reassured by how comfortable I am with you, breaks the kiss for a second to breathe* Um.. *biting lip and turning pink* did you want to get out of that suit too?...

Ben: Hmm -grins and kisses you again as I take off my clothes, quickly wrapping my arms back around you pulling you against my chest needing to feel your skin against mine, weaves my fingers through your soft, long hair wanting you to kiss me back just as deeply as I'm kissing you wanting and needing to experience more of you-

Angie: *blinks nervously as you undress in front of me but feels calm when you smile at me, I bite my lip scared, looking at your chest to not see anything else and so you cant see my red face, my heart pumping hard despite my efforts, kissing you again hoping that you don’t feel its strong beating*

Ben: -as I kiss you, I let my hand trail down from your neck to your chest having observed that you’re breathing so hard, setting my hand on your heart noticing you’re petrified, puts my other hand on your cheek so you look at my eyes- Angel, you don’t have to be so scared. -smiles and hugs you closer- Its just us, all I know is that I love you -kisses you slowly- But we can take things slow, you trust me don’t you? -kisses you warmly to show you how much I care for you-

Angie: *feels your love for me in your amazing kiss, thinking how much we purely and ~honestly~ love each other as I kiss you back starting to feel the same need that I feel in your touch, I shakily slip out of my panties and let them fall to the floor while still kissing you for the secure feeling that you give me, I put my hand to your cheek and whisper* Ben, I trust you blindly. I.. I want you… Ben, make love to me *looks into your eyes unsure of how silly I just sounded*

Ben: -kisses you smiling at your words, unhooks your bra and slides it off your shoulders letting my right hand fall to your chest hoping the warmth and feel of it on your heart steadies and comforts you- Whatever you say mi Reina -kisses you passionately as I lean to turn on the faucet and we step in letting the tepid water run over us as I continue loosing myself in the sweet taste of your lips-

Angie: *hooks my fingers with yours on my chest, butterflies running a muck inside of me but absolutely loving every touch you give me, smiles looking into your eyes and kisses you back, sighing into your kiss* Mmm…

Ben: -is breathing heavily in response to your kisses and sounds of enjoyment, without breaking our kiss I grab the soap from the side and slowly start to lather you up learning your every curve and enjoying the feel of your soft skin beneath my hands-

Angie: *skin burning for you as you run the soap and your hands over me, running my fingers through your hair and softly stroking your neck wanting more of your kiss, leaning my body into you and pulling you against me breaking the kiss to say* Ben, I love how you touch me. You’ve always been so sweet to me. I admit, Im nervous but…

Ben: -takes a deep breath to be able to speak holding your face- Angela, you are the most perfect woman I have ever known. You are the woman of my dreams that I could barely imagine, you're better and a thousand times more beautiful. I love you and I love this too -takes another deep breath and kisses you again strongly turned on by the feel of your hands on my face tightly wrapping an arm around your waist, the other trailing up your back to mold you into me, slowly pushing you back against the wall panting as I kiss you over and over savoring your mouth-

Angie: *repeatedly moaning into your kiss, lightly pushing my hips against yours, French kissing you and pulling you into me against the wall*

Ben: -dazed by your sounds, your feel as you pull me closer, surprised and happy by you're exploring my mouth with your tongue, returning it, caresses your tongue with mine, tasting you, enjoying the warmth and comfort of your mouth- Mmm... -breathing heavy because I am so turned on by the woman I love, not believing that I could have someone so wonderful, lost in my head at the joy you make me feel, getting hard hoping that I don’t startle you, gently holding your face so you focus on our kissing as a comfort-

Angie: *no longer thinking clearly, loosing control of myself kissing you with more and more passion, gasping a little at the feel of you beneath me but liking that I have that affect on you* Ben… you… you’re making me feel… so.. *decides to simply ravish your mouth in kisses again, not brave enough to tell you how turned on I am by you, hooking my leg around yours slowing trailing it up*

Ben: -breathing harder, unable to think- You're doing the same to me love -unable to control myself any longer I grasp your waist with my hand holding you against me so that I can feel your hips against mine, the other hand still on your cheek as I continue French kissing you, stopping to sensually lick them before letting my tongue dive in again with passion-

Angie: *panting, my chest rising and falling against yours* I want you… *kisses you* I want you now *continues kissing you and unconsciously rubbing myself against you*

Ben: -trailing my hand from your hips to your thigh bringing your leg up to my hips adjusting myself as I get more and more turned on by you, my chest also moving against your breasts as I pant kissing you, I slowly bring myself to break the kiss- Are you sure you’re ready to do this love? -looking at you longingly, desperately hoping that you say yes-

Angie: Yes, please *kisses you* I’ve never been so sure about anything else, I want you and only you *pulls you closer to me with my leg, puts my hand on your cheek looking into your eyes* Please baby, make love to me… Now

Ben: -takes a few slow deep breaths taking in what you just said, my head and body swimming in love, with one hand supporting your leg around me and the other wrapped around your back holding you to me, gives you a strong, deep, passionate kiss as I slowly insert myself into you, careful not to hurt you, breathes strongly at the warm tight feel of you and whispers into your ear- Are you ok?

Angie: *breathes sharply as you enter me, a quiet “Ow” escaping my lips, I put my forehead on your shoulder for support, confused by this new sensation that hurts but I somehow want more of, denies the pain of it* I.. I’m fine *kisses your neck*

Ben: -brings arm up your back to thread my fingers through your hair caressing your neck, kisses your cheek warmly and whispers in your ear- Don’t worry love, we'll take it slow. Don’t be afraid to tell me how you feel -kisses your cheek again to reassure you, slowly pulls out half way and inserts myself again going a little deeper, trying not to moan so loudly because you feel so much better than I could have ever imagined-

Angie: I.. you… you feel good inside me. It feels right *smiles and looks up at you* Kiss me

Ben: -smiles at what you're saying and kisses you, gently sucking your lips, then trailing kisses down your face, slowly keeping a rhythm in and out inside of you in sync with our breathing, moving your hair back to ravish more of your neck with kisses, grasping at your thigh a little tighter to steady ourselves as I start to deepen my movements-

Angie: *smiling, leaning my head to the side to give you more to kiss, moaning at the sensations, wincing as you push deeper, puts my hand on your cheek and quickly says* No its ok, I’m fine, please don’t stop

Ben: -panting, quickly looks at you worried but is calmed by your words and your touch, looks into your eyes and whispers- Are you sure? -sees you nod but decides to slow down a bit until you're warmed up a little more, kisses you deeply then breathes for a second to ask- Is that better love?

Angie: Yes, Im sure *notices that you slowed down a little* and that feels a lot better *kisses you and weaves my fingers through your hair again kissing you as deeply as I know how to show you how much I’ve been wanting you all this time, your being so caring and considerate making me want you even more*

Ben: -the touch of your hand in my hair shooting warm shots of electricity through my body down to where I am inside of you, my blood boiling for you needing more, swiftly lifts you so you wrap your legs around me, steps backwards and gently lays you down on the tub floor with one hand behind your head through your hair, the other under your back grasping at your side, keeping the slow pace but holding myself in the deep position inside of you for seconds at a time taking pleasure in the feel of your wet warm walls around me moaning and panting with every thrust loving every bit of you-

Angie: *gasps surprised, a strong moan escaping me at the feeling of the length of you inside me as I wrap my legs around you afraid of falling, once laying down, kissing you passionately because I like it when you take control*

Ben: -kissing you back letting my tongue dance with yours, licking it and savoring every bit of your mouth, desperately wanting to push even further but afraid to hurt you, lets my left hand travel down your thigh just under your knee bringing your leg over my shoulder to open you up a little more so it hurts less and feels better hitting the perfect angle, stops kissing you for a second still panting, putting my right hand on your cheek whispering in your other ear- How does that feel?

Angie: *feeling... naughty because of this new position but a lot more comfortable and loving it* Good… it feels really good, you’re so gentle with me. Please don’t hold back anymore, I love you. I want more of you *kisses you and whispers* Ben, have your way with me…

Ben: -smiles- I love you -kisses you deeper and does as you say, begins to pick up the pace a thrusting a little harder and as deeply as possible each time, my right hand moves down and is further turned on by how strong your heart is beating, begins to massage your breast, softly rubbing your nipple with my thumb, your moans inspiring me to push even harder into you while kissing you stronger all in tune with our heavy breathing-

Angie: I love you too *kissing you and moans louder, unable to control my volume anymore, completely confused as to how something that hurts this much could feel so much better at the same time, hides my need to call out in pain by digging my nails into your back and softly biting your lip before ravishing your mouth again with my tongue, only breaking our intense kisses to moan, counteracting it by saying “Don’t stop…” so you aren’t alarmed by the drama of what I’m feeling*

Ben: -is encouraged by what you're saying to me and starts to thrust a bit faster and harder, starts kissing back down your neck again while kneading your breast, desperately wanting it in my mouth but not sure if I should yet, starts kissing your chest above your breasts wondering what your thinking-

Angie: *no longer feeling any pain but sheer pleasure of the burning and pulsing feelings inside of me, my back arching, head going back as I moan louder and louder calling your name, my fingers grasping at your neck bringing your mouth to my breast* Kiss me! Ben… Aah, Mmm…

Ben: -moaning with you, continues kissing your breast and taking more and more of it into my mouth with every kiss, licking your it and your nipple in between kisses, the feel of you and the sounds of what I am making you feel further ignites the fire I am already feeling and I begin thrusting even deeper and harder somehow with my right hand on your hip angling you and bringing you into me with every thrust hitting your g-spot, moaning just has hard with you at each movement-

Angie: *looking down at you seeing how you are ravishing me with your mouth sending electricity running all throughout my body, thoroughly embarrassed by all the sounds I’m making but unable to stop them, my head moves to the side again gasping for air, my nails digging into you even harder, I bring my hand to my mouth to try to quiet myself only to end up moaning louder as I bite my own finger*

Ben: -feeling your nails dig into me and sensing you biting your hand with pleasure makes me loose my mind, I somehow find it in me to thrust even harder and deeper into you trying my best to control myself to make you come completely, panting so hard almost unable to speak but manages to say- Angie… come for me… Ang... –groans with pleasure and ravages your neck with strong kisses then strongly and forcefully battling your tongue with mine as I continue pushing harder for you desperately about to loose all control-

Angie: *is entirely dizzy, throws my arms on the floor by my head, my hands pushing and clawing against the shower walls trying to channel the pressure that has been building but at no avail, I moan out your name repeatedly no longer able to communicate, panting harder than ever* Ben…. Ben… Oh…. OH! BEN…. Ahh… BEN!

Ben: -moans your name in response to your calling out mine, gives you one last strong kiss and thrusts a few more times before letting go deep inside of you, my hot juices filling you up as I climax-

Angie: *feeling you release inside me throws me into the most intense feeling I have ever experienced, experiencing a pulsating fiery orgasm that I could have never imagined*

Ben: -stays inside you to feel the intensity of your first orgasm kissing you then pulls out and falls beside you trying to catch my breath, my mind and body completely taken over, when I can finally breathe I wrap my arm around you and kiss your head- Angela Weber-Cheney, I love you… more than I could ever express -strokes your hair out of your face and kissed your cheek-

Angie: *kissing you then gasping breathless when you fall to my side, mustering up enough air to whisper to you* You’re kidding me right?... This is what I have been missing all this time?... *catches my breath and kisses you passionately as I lay myself on top of you, my head on your chest blushing then with bright pink cheeks, sums up the courage to look you into your eyes biting my lip and smiling* Can we do that again? *squints curious and nervous of your reaction to what I just said*

Ben: -confused for a second as you ask your questions just looking at your beautiful face then passionately returning your kiss and chuckles- Love, we can do that as much as you want till death do us part -grins and starts kissing you, passion building yet again, grabbing your waist as you slowly begin rubbing yourself against me-

…and a week later I post this blog ^_~ *giggles* >.<

Our Wedding Reception Playlist! >.<

Our Song x-)

~ Matt Nathanson: Come On Get Higher ~

Sizzlin' Suare on the Strip!

Major Party Tonight!!! I finally got Lauren's 21st B-day present in the mail the other day so I thought that I would throw her a proper party with all of our friends to celebrate the (it's a surprise) ^_~ Everyone has pitched in in their own way. The boys are grilling things up at 4:00pm today and the big party should start at 5:00pm Forks.

~Everyone~ is invited just DM me, Mikey, or Lauren for the password and feel free to bring food, games, drinks, music, twizzlers *giggles* anything you want! Keep in mind it is going to be big city themed so come dressed up but be ready to party! Can't wait to see you all there, Eeeeeeeeeeeep!!! ^_^

Party at Ben's House for Lauren's 21st

A Little Inspiration

Things have been... not good lately. Thus, I am really unsure about posting this for fear of inadequate interpretation. However, it is simply an excerpt from the newsletter I picked up in church today and I really love what it says about faith in general.

Faith is the only thing that is keeping my hopes up a little bit in all of the unfortunate circumstances that have occurred. Eric has been a total sweetheart in all of this and continues to tell me to, "Have faith." We both found this passage to be true and the piece by Gerald Darring about it truly did help lift my spirits a bit as well.

Here is the quote that the piece is based on (God always knows what to say) -

He woke up, rebuked the wind, and said to the sea, "Quiet! Be still!" The wind ceased and there was great calm. Then he asked them, "Why are you terrified? Do you not yet have faith? -Mk 4:39-40

We humans are full of pride. We depend on our own resources and think we can solve any problem by applying our wit and energy.

Meanwhile, the problems pile up. Wars proliferate. Hunger abounds. The ecology deteriorates. There is poverty, homelessness, unemployment. Frustration drives some to crime. Others seek relief in drugs.

Perhaps one day we will realize that it will take more than our feeble efforts to rid the world of these problems. It will take the power of God, the one who shut within doors the sea and made the clouds its garment.

Humans alone against the great injustices of the world are like the disciples in the boat during the storm. They are helpless, unable to control these primal forces.

If only they would realize that they have with them the Lord of the universe, the one who can make the wind and the sea obey!

If only they would not be so lacking in faith, then maybe, by joining their efforts with the power of the almighty God, they could say to all the warmongers and haters and oppressors of the world: Quiet! Be still!

“Any interpretation that restricts the human predicament to a single, well-circumscribed problem, soluble through structural changes alone, is bound to be dangerously one-sided. Even to expect the solution of all human suffering or all social justice from revolution or social reform is to prepare oneself for bitter disillusionment.” U.S. Bishops, Pastoral Letter on Marxist Communism (1980) 32

BBQ for Ed and Jacob ^_^

Ed, Jake, and all of my boys go through so much nonsence on twitter sometimes so I thought I sould do something nice for them to get their minds off of it. Since the way to make every guy happy is with food, I though I would throw them a mini BBQ! Hehe, I love you guys! ^_^

Although... I think I might have gone a bit overboard :-/ (But it's okay *whispers* Jakey eats for twenty sometimes) *giggles* I hope you boys enjoy your lunch!

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(Sorry that I didn't have any matching glasses though)

Hmm, this seems familiar... (If only you could see the brilliant sparkle in high definition) ^_~

FYI: New Photography Blog!

New Photos Have Been Added to the Collection :)

Check out the link below for a preview of the new photo video that I will make this week. It will be posted sometime during the first week of June ^_~

"To Grow is to Live, to Live is to Grow"

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My Baby singing, I Love him ^_^

Claire's Birthday! ^_^

Here is what I got Claire for her birthday. She is turning into such an amazing young woman. It's really funny how the years go buy so quickly! So, I thought I would buy her a classy Louis Vuitton bag that still had pretty, bright colors to reflect her brilliant personality. Love you sweety, you are such a doll. I know you will ~Rock~ this bag ^_~

In Light of Recent Events ^_~

With everything that has been going on this past week, I feel the need to quote a brilliant work to remind myself and my friends, about what true love is all about and what it really means. This quote and this piece are extremely meaningful to me. I hold these words very close to my heart as I do all of my amazing and well intentioned friends. It is called, "Measuring Ourselves In Love"

“This is my commandment: love one another as I love you” (Jn:15:12).

When I was younger, I was pretty confident that I knew what love meant. After all, we all experience love in some way, being in love, loving someone, being loved by someone. Virtually everyone has known the love of somebody, a friend, a family member, an acquaintance.

But the older I get the more I wonder sometimes whether I, or most anyone else, has much sense of what that over-used word, love, really means? When we are honest, we sense our own distance from its full meaning. Why?

Because, the older we get, the more we also begin to know love’s dark side. Too common are these experiences: We fall in love and think it will last forever, but then fall out of love, feel love go sour, feel love grow cold, see love betrayed, feel ourselves wounded by love, and wound others. Finally, even more upsetting, we all find that there are always people in our lives who are cold, bitter, and unforgiving towards us so that it is not always easy to feel love and be loving.

In the light of this reticence, I would like comment on Jesus’ most important commandment: Love one another as I have loved you!

We too easily read that simplistically, romantically, and in a one-sided, over-confident manner. But this command contains the most important challenge of the whole gospel and, like the deepest part of the gospel to which it is linked, the crucifixion, it is very, very difficult to imitate. Why?

It’s easy to consider ourselves as loving if we only look at one side of things, namely, how we relate to those people who are loving, warm, respectful, and gracious towards us. If we rate ourselves on how we feel about ourselves in our best moments among like-minded friends, we can easily conclude both that we are loving persons and that we are measuring up to Jesus’ command to love as he did.

But if we begin to look at the skeletons in our relational closets our naive confidence soon disappears: What about the people who hate us, whom we don’t like? What about the people whom we avoid and who avoid us? What about those people towards whom we feel resentment? What about all those people with whom we are at odds, towards whom we feel suspicion, coldness, anger? What about those people whom we haven’t been able to forgive?

It’s one thing to love someone who adores you, it’s quite another to love someone who wants you dead!

But that’s the real test. Jesus’ command to love contains a critical subordinate clause, “as I have loved you!” What was unique in the way he loved us?

Where Jesus stretches us beyond our natural instincts and beyond all self-delusion is in his command to love our enemies, to be warm to those who are cold to us, to be kind to those who are cruel to us, to do good to those who hate us, to forgive those who hurt us, to forgive those who won’t forgive us, and to ultimately love and forgive those who are trying to kill us.

That command, love and forgive your enemies, more than any creedal formula or other moral issue, is the litmus-test for Christian discipleship. We can ardently believe in and defend every item in the creed and fight passionately for justice in all its dimensions, but the real test of whether or not we are followers of Jesus is the capacity or non-capacity to forgive an enemy, to remain warm and loving towards someone who is not warm and loving to us.

We shouldn’t delude ourselves on this. It is easy to rationalize this away and, if we do, no doubt there will be more than enough false friends around who will furnish us with both theological and psychological arguments that will justify us in not loving our enemies. But the gospel is uncompromising: We are loving or non-loving not on the basis of how we respond to those who love us, but on the basis of how we respond to those who hate us, and are cold, hostile, and murderous toward us. That’s the hard, non-negotiable truth underlying Jesus’ command to love and, when we are honest, we have to admit that we are still a long ways from measuring up to that.

There’s a sobering challenge in an old Stevie Nicks’ song, Golddust Woman: She suggests that it’s good that, at a point in life, someone “shatters our illusion of love” because far too often, blind to its own true intentions, our love is manipulative and self-serving. Too often, the song points out, we are lousy lovers who unconsciously pick our prey.

What shatters our illusion of love is the presence in our lives of people who hate us. They’re the test. It’s here where we have to measure up: If we can love them, we’re real lovers, if we can’t, we’re still under a self-serving illusion.

Fr. Ron Rolheiser

Quadstock at Seattle Univertity!!!

Here is what I wore tonight for Quadfest! (Why did we started calling it Quadfest?... I dont' know. I guess we just though it was a really festive outing. Not very creative huh? :-/ *giggles*) I'm really getting into light dresses like this lately, they are really comfy. Especially for long summer days like today, the event is still going on! =)

Let's just start with what led up to the situation...

So, a lot of you have been asking about what happened with Ben freshman year. Just to let you guys know, everything is just fine now so no need to worry. However, this story is important to understand where we are right now. I admit that I still get a little bit emotional talking about it though so it might take me a post or two to tell you everything...

Here is what led up to the whole situation:

Going into college I knew to expect changes. I had a small fear of the possibility that the stress of all the change was going to get to us and our relationship. I simply had no clue that it was going to go as far as it did. The second I got there I realized how much more work there was involved in comparison to Forks High. Thus, my reaction was to throw myself wholeheartedly and obsessively into my school work to survive it all with the grades that I'm used to. Ben on the other hand fell in love with the freedom of it all. (I was taking 5 classes while he was only taking 4) He had a bit too much time on his hands to explore it all. It didn't help that he started hanging out with a few upper classmen from one of our study groups that were all about the major parties and what not. Those guys were also close friends with a couple fraternities on campus, and you know how that goes from there...

In any case, I have always been a level headed person so I still wanted to have some fun too. I absolutely loved going to school functions with him and still do. (Can't wait for Quadfest!!!) I even joined him to one or two parties, the rest of the time I just let him go have fun with the guys. And it was great! Even though the parties we went to were a little crazy (mind you I only went with him to the low key ones, I will write about the big one that started everything later) I would be the center of his attention the entire night. To be honest, I have no idea about how to describe that amazing, warm, secure, adoring feeling I get just by being with him. We would dance with each other all night, he would hold me, and he would just have his arms around me the whole time in the tightest, most caring embrace. *daydreams* The feeling of having that strong of a bond and emotional intimacy, in the middle of such a complete mess, was such a comfort in that (please excuse the cliche, there is just no other way to explain it) we really were the only two people in the room. I was the one and only person that mattered to him.

Anyway, so I actually decided to go with him and his friends to a spring break party. (He managed to convince me by being his sweet, perfect, adorable self... I hate him. *pouts for being such a girl*) Big mistake. Never had I seen him that drunk before, I mean he was still stable but just seeing him like that really disgusted me. This is the one big 'real' party that I went with him to and the entire environment just irritated me so much. I've never been one of those crazy drinkers and I hate that lifestyle. He knew this, and yet there he was having one drink after another as if it were a sport or something. Here is where we had our first fight.

I just pushed him out of there at around 11:30pm. He fought with me the entire time, "But it's so early, what about tomorrow's part?" this, that the other... I've never been the one to raise my voice but in this situation I simply wasn't going to keep my mouth shut. I yelled at him at the top of my lungs, "NO! That's It, I'm Leaving! I just Can't be here, what if something Bad happens? And look at you! NO, let's GO!" Thankfully he was dazed enough that I was able to get him into the car and take him to his dorm. He literally passed out asleep the second he hit the bed. I just put some water by the bed, left him there and went to my room. His room mate was a really responsible and smart medical engineering major or something like that, so I knew he would be okay. I just couldn't be there, I needed to digest everything that had just happened.

For the whole week after that I just didn't speak to him. I just couldn't get over how he talked to me that night. He was blowing up my phone and banging on my door everyday trying to apologize, but I told him I just didn't want to deal with him just yet. I was in the middle of a huge exam week and I was still so emotional about it. I wanted to have a clear and level head when I actually talked to him. Needless to say, my grades did suffer a little bit because of those exams and the stress of the whole situation but it was worse for him. His grades fell simply because he was skipping so many classes and going out all the time. That was another major issue. He is so brilliant and I care about him so much that I just want him to be able to achieve everything he wants in life. I finally talked to him the week after that and accepted his apology on very reserved terms. Things did get better because he still loved me as much as I loved him, and that's something that will never change. It was what happened once exams were over that broke us up. That night... (shakes head trying not to think about it) Is for another time.

Whoa guys! Sorry for the essay, I didn't realize how much there was to say about that. Well, at least you have all of freshman year in a nutshell. Hope I didn't bore you too much with all that. Feel free to ask me any questions or comment away on twitter. I get back to absolutely everyone that @ replies me. Love you all ^_^

An Acension to Something New =)

Here is the extra credit project I just finished!
Remember, there are more interesting videos on my page ^_~
http://www.youtube.com/user/AngelaWebber753

Just curious if I can post video too...

You can always check out my youtube channel also:
http://www.youtube.com/user/AngelaWebber753

FHS Prom

Now that I figured out that I can post pictures too... Here is what I wore to this year's Forks High School prom. (I think it was the Saturday before last if memory serves me right) It was so fun to go back and see everyone ^_^

Mother's Day 2009

Here is what the boy's and I got her this year, and she absolutely Loved it!
It's engraved with this: With Love ~ Angela ~ Isaac ~ Joshua

Just testing ^_^ Hmm, what to write about...

Oh! I know something slightly interesting. Sometime this morning I came across an old pair of 3D glasses and I have to ask; How Do They Do It? Technology is getting better and better every year, I really don't get how they do any of it, or at least how there can still be any more improvements... Ben had been sweet enough to come with me to see Monsters vs. Aliens when the twins were begging me to take them. It was so great having him there with me, we came up with so many silly little quips and inside jokes from it.

For a good week after that we would randomly go around yelling; "Wait, where's this Giant Jar of Pickles!?" and saying "Oh space balls!" instead of cursing. *giggling* I love that we are such total dorks, and that he gets along so well with my boys and the family. If I could only explain how warm and amazing that happy feeling is when I get to see them all hanging out together and just being with each other. I feel like he is one of the greatest blessings in my life. How he came to me I don't know...

Wow, now I'm off on a tangent about Ben. Sorry! Thant might happen a lot, especially now since I got out of school early and he's still there. I hate not seeing him everyday, it's what I'm used to, but I've really been missing all of my friends and family in Forks so I was dying to start my summer a little early. But enough about that, I'm a tad too fast at typing and by the end of it I tend to realize that I just typed up and entire essay! So, that's it for the first one. For those that are reading this, please help me out. I know nothing about blogging so feel free to comment or twitter me any suggestions on how to do this better, I'd really appreciate it! Bye for now *smiles*