Hmm, this seems familiar... (If only you could see the brilliant sparkle in high definition) ^_~

FYI: New Photography Blog!

New Photos Have Been Added to the Collection :)

Check out the link below for a preview of the new photo video that I will make this week. It will be posted sometime during the first week of June ^_~

"To Grow is to Live, to Live is to Grow"

http://twitpic.com/photos/Angela_Webber_

My Baby singing, I Love him ^_^

Claire's Birthday! ^_^

Here is what I got Claire for her birthday. She is turning into such an amazing young woman. It's really funny how the years go buy so quickly! So, I thought I would buy her a classy Louis Vuitton bag that still had pretty, bright colors to reflect her brilliant personality. Love you sweety, you are such a doll. I know you will ~Rock~ this bag ^_~

In Light of Recent Events ^_~

With everything that has been going on this past week, I feel the need to quote a brilliant work to remind myself and my friends, about what true love is all about and what it really means. This quote and this piece are extremely meaningful to me. I hold these words very close to my heart as I do all of my amazing and well intentioned friends. It is called, "Measuring Ourselves In Love"

“This is my commandment: love one another as I love you” (Jn:15:12).

When I was younger, I was pretty confident that I knew what love meant. After all, we all experience love in some way, being in love, loving someone, being loved by someone. Virtually everyone has known the love of somebody, a friend, a family member, an acquaintance.

But the older I get the more I wonder sometimes whether I, or most anyone else, has much sense of what that over-used word, love, really means? When we are honest, we sense our own distance from its full meaning. Why?

Because, the older we get, the more we also begin to know love’s dark side. Too common are these experiences: We fall in love and think it will last forever, but then fall out of love, feel love go sour, feel love grow cold, see love betrayed, feel ourselves wounded by love, and wound others. Finally, even more upsetting, we all find that there are always people in our lives who are cold, bitter, and unforgiving towards us so that it is not always easy to feel love and be loving.

In the light of this reticence, I would like comment on Jesus’ most important commandment: Love one another as I have loved you!

We too easily read that simplistically, romantically, and in a one-sided, over-confident manner. But this command contains the most important challenge of the whole gospel and, like the deepest part of the gospel to which it is linked, the crucifixion, it is very, very difficult to imitate. Why?

It’s easy to consider ourselves as loving if we only look at one side of things, namely, how we relate to those people who are loving, warm, respectful, and gracious towards us. If we rate ourselves on how we feel about ourselves in our best moments among like-minded friends, we can easily conclude both that we are loving persons and that we are measuring up to Jesus’ command to love as he did.

But if we begin to look at the skeletons in our relational closets our naive confidence soon disappears: What about the people who hate us, whom we don’t like? What about the people whom we avoid and who avoid us? What about those people towards whom we feel resentment? What about all those people with whom we are at odds, towards whom we feel suspicion, coldness, anger? What about those people whom we haven’t been able to forgive?

It’s one thing to love someone who adores you, it’s quite another to love someone who wants you dead!

But that’s the real test. Jesus’ command to love contains a critical subordinate clause, “as I have loved you!” What was unique in the way he loved us?

Where Jesus stretches us beyond our natural instincts and beyond all self-delusion is in his command to love our enemies, to be warm to those who are cold to us, to be kind to those who are cruel to us, to do good to those who hate us, to forgive those who hurt us, to forgive those who won’t forgive us, and to ultimately love and forgive those who are trying to kill us.

That command, love and forgive your enemies, more than any creedal formula or other moral issue, is the litmus-test for Christian discipleship. We can ardently believe in and defend every item in the creed and fight passionately for justice in all its dimensions, but the real test of whether or not we are followers of Jesus is the capacity or non-capacity to forgive an enemy, to remain warm and loving towards someone who is not warm and loving to us.

We shouldn’t delude ourselves on this. It is easy to rationalize this away and, if we do, no doubt there will be more than enough false friends around who will furnish us with both theological and psychological arguments that will justify us in not loving our enemies. But the gospel is uncompromising: We are loving or non-loving not on the basis of how we respond to those who love us, but on the basis of how we respond to those who hate us, and are cold, hostile, and murderous toward us. That’s the hard, non-negotiable truth underlying Jesus’ command to love and, when we are honest, we have to admit that we are still a long ways from measuring up to that.

There’s a sobering challenge in an old Stevie Nicks’ song, Golddust Woman: She suggests that it’s good that, at a point in life, someone “shatters our illusion of love” because far too often, blind to its own true intentions, our love is manipulative and self-serving. Too often, the song points out, we are lousy lovers who unconsciously pick our prey.

What shatters our illusion of love is the presence in our lives of people who hate us. They’re the test. It’s here where we have to measure up: If we can love them, we’re real lovers, if we can’t, we’re still under a self-serving illusion.

Fr. Ron Rolheiser

Quadstock at Seattle Univertity!!!

Here is what I wore tonight for Quadfest! (Why did we started calling it Quadfest?... I dont' know. I guess we just though it was a really festive outing. Not very creative huh? :-/ *giggles*) I'm really getting into light dresses like this lately, they are really comfy. Especially for long summer days like today, the event is still going on! =)

Let's just start with what led up to the situation...

So, a lot of you have been asking about what happened with Ben freshman year. Just to let you guys know, everything is just fine now so no need to worry. However, this story is important to understand where we are right now. I admit that I still get a little bit emotional talking about it though so it might take me a post or two to tell you everything...

Here is what led up to the whole situation:

Going into college I knew to expect changes. I had a small fear of the possibility that the stress of all the change was going to get to us and our relationship. I simply had no clue that it was going to go as far as it did. The second I got there I realized how much more work there was involved in comparison to Forks High. Thus, my reaction was to throw myself wholeheartedly and obsessively into my school work to survive it all with the grades that I'm used to. Ben on the other hand fell in love with the freedom of it all. (I was taking 5 classes while he was only taking 4) He had a bit too much time on his hands to explore it all. It didn't help that he started hanging out with a few upper classmen from one of our study groups that were all about the major parties and what not. Those guys were also close friends with a couple fraternities on campus, and you know how that goes from there...

In any case, I have always been a level headed person so I still wanted to have some fun too. I absolutely loved going to school functions with him and still do. (Can't wait for Quadfest!!!) I even joined him to one or two parties, the rest of the time I just let him go have fun with the guys. And it was great! Even though the parties we went to were a little crazy (mind you I only went with him to the low key ones, I will write about the big one that started everything later) I would be the center of his attention the entire night. To be honest, I have no idea about how to describe that amazing, warm, secure, adoring feeling I get just by being with him. We would dance with each other all night, he would hold me, and he would just have his arms around me the whole time in the tightest, most caring embrace. *daydreams* The feeling of having that strong of a bond and emotional intimacy, in the middle of such a complete mess, was such a comfort in that (please excuse the cliche, there is just no other way to explain it) we really were the only two people in the room. I was the one and only person that mattered to him.

Anyway, so I actually decided to go with him and his friends to a spring break party. (He managed to convince me by being his sweet, perfect, adorable self... I hate him. *pouts for being such a girl*) Big mistake. Never had I seen him that drunk before, I mean he was still stable but just seeing him like that really disgusted me. This is the one big 'real' party that I went with him to and the entire environment just irritated me so much. I've never been one of those crazy drinkers and I hate that lifestyle. He knew this, and yet there he was having one drink after another as if it were a sport or something. Here is where we had our first fight.

I just pushed him out of there at around 11:30pm. He fought with me the entire time, "But it's so early, what about tomorrow's part?" this, that the other... I've never been the one to raise my voice but in this situation I simply wasn't going to keep my mouth shut. I yelled at him at the top of my lungs, "NO! That's It, I'm Leaving! I just Can't be here, what if something Bad happens? And look at you! NO, let's GO!" Thankfully he was dazed enough that I was able to get him into the car and take him to his dorm. He literally passed out asleep the second he hit the bed. I just put some water by the bed, left him there and went to my room. His room mate was a really responsible and smart medical engineering major or something like that, so I knew he would be okay. I just couldn't be there, I needed to digest everything that had just happened.

For the whole week after that I just didn't speak to him. I just couldn't get over how he talked to me that night. He was blowing up my phone and banging on my door everyday trying to apologize, but I told him I just didn't want to deal with him just yet. I was in the middle of a huge exam week and I was still so emotional about it. I wanted to have a clear and level head when I actually talked to him. Needless to say, my grades did suffer a little bit because of those exams and the stress of the whole situation but it was worse for him. His grades fell simply because he was skipping so many classes and going out all the time. That was another major issue. He is so brilliant and I care about him so much that I just want him to be able to achieve everything he wants in life. I finally talked to him the week after that and accepted his apology on very reserved terms. Things did get better because he still loved me as much as I loved him, and that's something that will never change. It was what happened once exams were over that broke us up. That night... (shakes head trying not to think about it) Is for another time.

Whoa guys! Sorry for the essay, I didn't realize how much there was to say about that. Well, at least you have all of freshman year in a nutshell. Hope I didn't bore you too much with all that. Feel free to ask me any questions or comment away on twitter. I get back to absolutely everyone that @ replies me. Love you all ^_^

An Acension to Something New =)

Here is the extra credit project I just finished!
Remember, there are more interesting videos on my page ^_~
http://www.youtube.com/user/AngelaWebber753

Just curious if I can post video too...

You can always check out my youtube channel also:
http://www.youtube.com/user/AngelaWebber753

FHS Prom

Now that I figured out that I can post pictures too... Here is what I wore to this year's Forks High School prom. (I think it was the Saturday before last if memory serves me right) It was so fun to go back and see everyone ^_^

Mother's Day 2009

Here is what the boy's and I got her this year, and she absolutely Loved it!
It's engraved with this: With Love ~ Angela ~ Isaac ~ Joshua

Just testing ^_^ Hmm, what to write about...

Oh! I know something slightly interesting. Sometime this morning I came across an old pair of 3D glasses and I have to ask; How Do They Do It? Technology is getting better and better every year, I really don't get how they do any of it, or at least how there can still be any more improvements... Ben had been sweet enough to come with me to see Monsters vs. Aliens when the twins were begging me to take them. It was so great having him there with me, we came up with so many silly little quips and inside jokes from it.

For a good week after that we would randomly go around yelling; "Wait, where's this Giant Jar of Pickles!?" and saying "Oh space balls!" instead of cursing. *giggling* I love that we are such total dorks, and that he gets along so well with my boys and the family. If I could only explain how warm and amazing that happy feeling is when I get to see them all hanging out together and just being with each other. I feel like he is one of the greatest blessings in my life. How he came to me I don't know...

Wow, now I'm off on a tangent about Ben. Sorry! Thant might happen a lot, especially now since I got out of school early and he's still there. I hate not seeing him everyday, it's what I'm used to, but I've really been missing all of my friends and family in Forks so I was dying to start my summer a little early. But enough about that, I'm a tad too fast at typing and by the end of it I tend to realize that I just typed up and entire essay! So, that's it for the first one. For those that are reading this, please help me out. I know nothing about blogging so feel free to comment or twitter me any suggestions on how to do this better, I'd really appreciate it! Bye for now *smiles*